Soulmates

I have discovered the undeniable thread that holds me and Bonnie's friendship together:

WE LOVE GOING TO THE DENTIST. 

Haha. I have NEVER met someone who agrees with me! Most people think I am crazy. Its nice to have someone who understands... FINALLY. :)

Just proves that we are soulmates Bon. There is no escaping the truth.

I know I know.

Two posts in one day. I am procrastinating people. BUT - Kate Nash has grown on me. Mostly because of this song:

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break,
Yea, I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
Yea, I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

Look,
All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish we could see if we could be something
Yea, I wish we could see if we could be something

Once again... so true Miss Nash. So true.

youtube linkage: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wYWv_NSBZQI

Holy Moly

So last night I was praying about two specific things. One of which has been life altering, and the other which will one day be life altering. I was praying that God help me deal with my emotions about the two things because it was hovering between extreme unhappiness for one, and too much happiness regarding the other. After praying I flipped open my Bible casually, thinking to read a little James or Romans before going to bed. Instead I found myself in Isaiah, a book I normally ignore (not really sure why). What I read there made me smile, because although I have been struggling in my faith as of late, I know that God is still revealing himself to me.

"You have been hated and left empty with no one passing through. But I will make you great from now on; you will be a place of happiness forever and ever. You will be given what you need from the nations, like a child drinking milk from its mother. Then you will know that it is I, the LORD who saves you. You will know that the Powerful One of Jacob protects you. I will bring you gold in place of bronze, silver in place of iron, bronze in place of wood, iron in place of rocks. I will change your punishment into peace, and you will be ruled by what is right." -- Isaiah 60: 15-17 (NCV)

The things I was praying about have been causes of extreme difficulty in my life and those words described how I felt about them perfectly. But God has made a promise that I will be happy again. My happiness about one situation is not undeserved, and he will make the other one right. Although the answers were not specific, it was more of a "Chill out Becks. I'm in control." 

I still don't understand how some people can claim its all coincidence. The peace that came most definitely is not.

Far Far

Oh Yael Naïm, how do you know me so well? 

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something to happen to her
everyday she writes words and more words
just to spit out the thoughts that keep floating inside
and she's strong when the dreams come cos' they
take her, cover her, they are all over
the reality looks far now, but don't go

How can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
oh oh oh oh

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there are colors and shapes
dazzling her eyes, tickling her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarelle rivers
but don't you run away already
please don't go oh oh

How can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
Take a deep breath and dive
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess
beautiful mess inside

Oh beautiful, beautiful

Far far there's this little girl
she was praying for something big to happen to her
every night she hears beautiful strange music
it's everywhere there's nowhere to hide
but if it fades she begs
"oh lord don't take it from me, don't take it"

She says, "I guess I'll have to give it birth
to give it birth
I guess, I guess I have to give it birth
I guess I have to, have to give it birth
there's a beautiful mess inside and it's everywhere

Just look at yourself now
deep inside
deeper than you ever dared
deeper than you ever dared
there's a beautiful mess inside
beautiful mess inside

Brilliant.

I finally watched...

When Harry Met Sally last night with the Bonster and Ms. Kathy. I have been wanting to see that movie again for weeks, so I was pleased to finally watch it. Its a great romantic comedy. Most of the ones these days seem to be cliché. But When Harry Met Sally is classic. I think Meg Ryan is absolutely adorable in all her quirky goodness. I still think Drew Barrymore is my favorite, but Meg may be next. 

Life has been so crazy lately. I feel like I may be actually going crazy half the time. (But as Bonnie and I discussed, crazy people don't know they're crazy. So as long as I keep thinking I'm crazy, I'm good.) It seems like my brain is being pulled in a million directions half the time, all centered around one nasty life incident. But its all good I guess. Things will calm down, and I will go back to being a less crazy version of myself.

Now I am off to actually do laundry that I have been ignoring for a week. At this point I have no clean pants so I figure I better wash some or else. *sigh*